Have you guys ever liked someone SO much, and then for some reason stopped talking to him, or didn't see him anymore? But you never really stopped liking him for any reason besides you never saw him?

If it has happened to you, find a reason to stop liking him. Be mad at him for moving, or for not talking to you. Get rid of that crush.

Because if you don't... well. here's my story

So I liked / loved this guy in 7th grade. He was the first guy I thought I was in complete love with. He was one of my really good friends, and I liked him when he was all grungy and gross looking. He had super long hobo greasy hair and braces and he looked disgusting.
But I still loved him

and then later than year he got a haircut. Started looking pretty fine.
Then he got his braces off. Sexy as hell. One of my best friends started to like him, only because he looked great now

But... I had become friends with him, I knew him. I loved everything about him. I was one of the first people he talked to every morning in school (then again, it was a small school o.o not much of a choice). he always tried to be on my team for dodgeball or PE. He always stood in front of me so I wouldn't get hit for dodgeball. and then when he took a bullet/ ball for me, it would be my job to get him back in.
At our school carnival on his birthday, he would come to me at random times of the day to tell him his accomplishments. I gave him carnival money that I wasn't going to use as a sort of birthday gift, and he got a lucky rabbits foot with it. When he showed it off to everyone, I was the only one he let touch it for luck.
On our DC trip he stood by me a lot, talked to me as much as his guy friends. Was my Mario Kart partner on the bus. <- we were always the number one team. And when we were on opposite teams, he wouldn't use his blue shell if he saw I was in front.

And then... he graduated. I also started to like another guy. But I never let go of This one. I saw him a few months later. My heart stopped, a smile grew on my face, and it was as if we had never seperated.

And then he started high school, while I was stuck another year at the school he had graduated from.



And then... today I saw him for the first time in 3 years. I walked into the room and saw him facing the other way. I double taked to make sure it was him. My heart stopped, my breath caught, and I realized that no matter how much time had passed, I had loved him throughout all these years, and I still. Freaking. Do.

The worse thing? He did the same thing for me. He looked over to me, looked back to what he was doing, and looked back really fast and just stared for a moment. and then when I walked away and sat down next to my friend on the other side of the gym, he was trying to look around his friend to make sure it was me.

And neither of us said anything to each other.

We played dodgeball. Same rules applied as when we were younger. He still blocked me, I still got him back in. We still had those little smile and laugh with each other moments about something only we understood.

but he has a fricken girlfriend now. I mean I'm happy for him, but T.T!!!

and then again, it's not like ill see him for another three years T.T.

But... I missed him so much that it hurt... and I had just liked other people to dull the pain. I realize that now. I realize that my 'love' for anyone besides him... was false. Of course, I'm still going to 'like' Sky and Seiji. But... I realized that my heart only skips for them when I see them unexpectedly.

But my heart skipped every time I looked at Ben. I fell in love with him all over again. Everything he did. His smile, his eyes, everything. So... was everything I had ever felt for anyone else false?

Answer: of course not. But... the second I saw him again, every other crush was washed away. Every other person in the room was faded. Any noise was just a faded murmur, while his voice was the only crystal clear thing in my head. I've cried 5 times since I got home 4 hours ago, because all of the sorrow I had from missing him has begun to wash out.

And I couldn't even muster the guts to say hi to him. The first time I can talk to him in three years, and I choose not to. And I know he didn't because I didn't.

Fudge.

moral of the story: if a guy you like drifts from you, Hate him. For anything. Or don't let him go in the first place. You'll regret it later

~Fml.